Buat Imamku...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

It had been a year since...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Subhanallah.. time flies so fast :') it has been a year since i had left UM to stay in Klang.. but now it just only one day left before me n my friends have to go back to UM to continue our study there.. we will be taking our Final Phase IIIA Examination soon... yup very soon i really mean it...huhu... please do pray for us okay =) 

Through out one year, many things had happened to me... many things had changed :') i learnt to become wiser n stronger here...alone without family around..each day had to survived by myself with the support of friends..yup i succeed.. its a yeayyy for me.. Alhamdulillah praise to Allah :) and what my mother always told me " Adik dah besar.. adik boleh go trough semua ni.. ini la kehidupan sebenar sayang" and she will smile at me. She did give me some spirit to move on. After a very painful fall..yup its really painful and sometimes at that particular time i felt that i couldn't stand up back after that fall.. deep down inside..it kill me slowly.. at that time only Allah knows how it felt. 

First, the broken up things.. i know its Allah work not us..and i also didn't blame anyone in this matter because i know everyone has its own reason in making choices..it just that at that time i have to face it by myself and the people keep asking me the same question why n why n why and another thing to reorganized my life back to be single from relationship..it takes time..it takes many people to make me believed that it happens for a reason... Alhamdulillah now i regain my spirit back.. regain strength to do anything or going anywhere by myself rather than had to be dependent to other people especially during my couple time (i think i am too dependent to him at that time) Now i want to focus in my study and also to my family.. they said family dont have 'END' when everything those. One day InsyaAllah.. Allah will grant me with a very lovely husband that accept me who i am and will teach me anything that i do not know :) i belief in fates.

Secondly, i lost my grandmother :'( its realllyyyyyyyyy a sad thing for me T_T to loss the one that i love so much.. and to know that i am no longer able to see her anymore every time i come back to my hometown. I never think that she will leave me as early as this.. she never had chance to see me in my wedding dress and to be a special guest on my wedding day.. yup before this she always told me that she was very excited to see the one and only grandchild that she love the most in her wedding dress and to attend her wedding day.. But i know.. Allah is a very good planner.. Allah takes my grandma from us but He did relief my grandma's pain in which she had to bare for a very quite long time already.. she used to be the strongest woman i ever know who was good in hiding her own pain... and when im thinking about that.. it made me feel relief.. My grandma safe and happy up there.. InsyaAllah.. Amin ^^

I hope the sad things ends here and i belief Allah has planned a great thing for me ahead :) InsyaAllah.. Not to forget do pray for our safe journey going back to UM this Sunday.. Amin 

lots of loves,

zierahanie

Jason Mraz - I Won't Give Up (Lyric Video)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

U can change many things..but one thing u cant.. the MEMORIES remain.. Ya Allah how i wish my last relationship will be the last battle for me...but it ends this way... we r going far away from each other.. act like we never knew one another..that's the pain that we had to paid.. i don't blame anyone because i know Allah is planning another great thing for me :) n Alhamdulillah everything just going fine now... but how i wish that someone who will do the same thing like in this song was 'him' the one would i expect to be my last battle but  somehow in the middle i realized my expectation was to high.. he never could reach it.. leave me with the promises :') but im so thankful.. u taught me how to be strong.. and made me realized not every single thing that we want we would get it.. its a lesson for us to prepare for our own future :)

I just love this song.. im so amazed with the strength of the love they have :)




When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

lots of loves,

zierahanie :)

so cute!!! ^^

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

KNOW WHAT... The reason why people hold on to memories so tight is because that's/they are the only thing that doesn't change when everything else does.

yup people do/does change
but 

the memories never fade ^^

lots of loves,

zierahanie :)

=p

lol =p

happy Mother's Day :)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...


Happy Monday guys :) weekend finished so soon.. that's mean new journey in my life begin today :) i'll miss the kids so much.. :') now i think i know where would i go when i stressed up with my life..those kiddos will surely can make me smile when there's nothing goes the way i want...yeah i really should be thankful of that.. Alhamdulillah for such wonderful life that He had planned for me ^^ ... n also i would like to thank to Allah for giving me such a precious n most lovable person in the world :) my Mom.. tq for everything.. nothing else i wanted most other than to have my mom by my side during sadness or in my happiness :) Tq again for everything 

<3

Mother, the most beautiful person on this earth. Our best critic, yet our strongest supporter.
A mother is defined literally as a parent of the female gender. Characteristics of a mother include a person who protects, loves, cherishes, sacrifices, teaches, and works hard to provide the best upbringing possible for her children. From the time a mother has a child in the womb, they endure lots of changes to their bodies, and the overall lives they live, and usually endure a tremendous amount of pain during the actual birth of their child(ren).

A mother's touch is something that is very hard to duplicate, and is something that everyone can use and love when they are growing up. We need to be sure to celebrate our mothers, and let them know that we will forever be grateful for all of the things, the sacrifice, the pain, and the love that they have given to us. Never take having a mother for granted, because not everyone is lucky enough to have one in their lives. Treat your mother just as special as she really is, as one in a million.

lots of loves,

zierahanie :)

you left so soon :'(

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

<3

Every time I close my eyes I see you in front of me

I still can hear your voice calling out my name

And I remember all the stories you told me

I miss the time you were around (x2)

But I’m so grateful for every moment I spent with you

‘Cause I know life won’t last forever

You went so soon, so soon

You left so soon, so soon

I have to move on ’cause I know it’s been too long

I’ve got to stop the tears, keep my faith and be strong

I’ll try to take it all, even though it’s so hard

I see you in my dreams but when I wake up you are gone

Gone so soon

Night and day, I still feel you are close to me

And I remember you in every prayer that I make

Every single day may you be shaded by His mercy

But life is not the same, and it will never be the same

But I’m so thankful for every memory I shared with you

‘Cause I know this life is not forever

There were days when I had no strength to go on

I felt so weak and I just couldn’t help asking: “Why?”

But I got through all the pain when I truly accepted

That to God we all belong, and to Him we’ll return.

This picture is during Eid of 2010.. now i realized..there r no pictures of us with my late grandma for last year Eid because at that time she did not want to join us for the taking pictures ceremony T_T she said just continue without me, im so old for taking pictures n everything :') no atok u'r always young as ever..ur strength n courage has inspired me so much :') love u n i miss u so much T_T no one can replace u.. they always said 'patah tumbuh hilang berganti' but for me no one can be like u...no one can protect n take care of me during my childhood as great as u do...n no one can give full package of love n attention for me as much as u do besides emak n ayah... :) Alhamdulillah...im thankful to God because giving me chances to feel all that things with my atok :))  insyaAllah Jannah for u atok.. rest in peace there.. till we met again one fine day :')

lots of loves,

zierahanie