A Thousand Years :)

Heartbeats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave

How can I love when I’m afraid to fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

Time stands still

Beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything take away

What’s standing in front of me

Every breath

Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

One step closer

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

special song 

dedicated

for my future imam 

:)

lots of love,

zierahanie

Ombak Rindu fever!!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Happy Friday guys =)

Its has been so long since i last updated my blog... trying to keep filling my time with everything i can =) one of it is yeahh of coz watching movies...last week Breaking Dawn with my bff Miss Ummi Hani! n just now with my batch mates Izzati,Anis,Hamira,Anim,Kak Mira,Ika n Nazzem. Guess what we watched Ombak Rindu :) very theee excited right! hehe...never been excited like this.. Everyone had different opinion with this movie.. for me maybe i would like to rate this movie 8 out of 10 (haha..maybe bcoz of what just happened in my life, i cant give full mark to this movie.. lol =p)

When my friends start talking about how pity they r with Izzah (the heroin in this film) but for me i am more pity to Mila ( assistant heroin..yeahhh so called =p). The only thing that Mila knows is she loves Hariz so much..n Hariz is the only guy she would gives her love.. At least Izzah has Hariz's love n attention... i mean Izzah knows that someone waiting n loving her so much..but Mila?? she just like people always said 'bertepuk sebelah tangan' it will never ever produces any sound...nothing...

Its Mila after knowing the existence of Izzah

Seriously people.. its hurt when u know that the only guy that u love so much n never thinking of other man to be ur husband n only want to be with him in the future tells u that he does not love u anymore (means before this he used to love u but not anymore now)...SERIOUSLY ITS HURT SO MUCH...i mean the greatest hurt that u would ever felt...Oh God help me...the memories keep on moving around me..promises..everything keep on rewinding back..how far should i go to end all of this things...yeahh i should keep on busying my time..i believes through times it will heal everything.. InsyaAllah


-zierahanie-

Manhattan Fish... Medicine...Life goes on :)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Happy Thursday peeps! :)

i cant wait for the weekend to come! yeayyy..hopefully my advanced birthday present will be ready soon =p
Alright the sadness n everything has to be stop..i mean right now...n im finished with it! :) i hv my own life..family, frens n not to forget my dearest JiMiY..hehe..my very loyal companion..^^ thats why when people ask me why im still smiling even this thing happened to me... my answer is simple.. u'r not the person that was responsible to make me sad...u'r not the one to be blame for...so why im wasting my time to show my sadness in front of those people that always make me happy all the time :) n something that i know...Allah knows better..He was fair enough...i believes He will never let me to be in sad n bad period all the time..in the end He will set up a very beautiful rainbow after He gives the heavy rain :)

And this is what i do..enjoying my life =p having farewell party with my colleague :) n let the pictures tell the story ^^

haha..candid! ok obviously im not ready yet!!

they r those crazy frens! :)

ohh nooo..candid again! smiling with my eyes cant open =p

yeahhh lunch time! :0

they left me behind -_- im still on my way 

amaze!

the food! superb!!

there's dr wong..our beloved n super cool lecturer :)

colleagues

me! waiting for the food..ok im starving :0

\

us! :)

yeahh rumieee! :)

lots of loves,

zierahanie :)

searching for my own happiness :)

My family

yes there r those special people

that pull me up

especially now

during my rough time 

tq for supporting me ^^

My silence...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...


...was what I needed and now the awkward start begins. 

I'm different now. Not so perhaps to those who know me. Much so to those who think they know me. I meant no harm. Honest...I just did what I had to do. No more pretending. No more resenting. 

It wasn't all a lie. No...I genuinely had moments where my heart felt so at peace. Moments I reached out...bursting with honesty & truth trying to make sense of it all. Trying to connect. But I feel there is something missing, something I still don't understand causing me to be this way. There was something wrong with me and to ignore it any longer would only do more harm than good. 

Words don't suffice to explain what's going on with me, forgive me for that. I want to start over...this time insyaAllah with the right foot forward, with my heart in place. I took a risk and it wasn't easy.
Ya Allah make me strong to face this... 

So please...let me~

im tired...give me some rest

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Im tired of keeping it all alone,

im tired of thinking that its all gonna be fine

when nothing change,

when im all alone along the road trying hard

to make it happened

but you seems not doing anything...

im trying hard to be ur friend

like what u want one

but still u treat me differently

compared when u with ur friends

obviously i can see that

n maybe u never realized that

for a few days im trying 

not to be like i always be when im with u
i want to be ur friend
instead of 'friend'

but still nothing changed

am i not one of ur friend??

im tired...

Sometimes i agree

im bursting out

i got no control of myself...

Honestly in the 1st place

why u still choosing me

to be ur 'friend'

when the passion in u

towards me has lost

im tired

when nothing i do

would impress u

my dear friend 

im tired of all this

give me some rest...

(#Unknown)

TQ!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

lots of loves,

zierahanie=)

miserable...missing...everything =')

everyone need their own space

fresh air i thought

i should be understand that =)

maybe we need distance for a while

it will be better 

after a period of 

too dependent to each other

InsyaAllah everything gonna be find

keep the positive thought 

^_^

      

lots of loves,

zierahanie=)

Its called human nature =)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

"Kami (lelaki) punya tubuh yang kuat, namun kami lemahkan sendi-sendi kami, kami sembunyikan kekuatan kami. Sesungguhnya Hawa, kami punya suara yang kasar, amarah yang kuat, namun kami lembutkan suara kami, kami sabar dengan amarah kami. Tidakkah kau (hawa) terpikir mengapa? Tidakkah kau hairan dengan layanan kami terhadap kamu? Tidakkah kau pelik, harimau yang mengganas di medan perang, jinak bila berada di pangkuan kamu? Fikirkanlah mengapa...

 "

one of the article i took from FB =) my comment is simple.. all i can say is.. its a human nature=) everyone needs somebody in their life...whether its going to be different sex or the same...everyone needs others  e.g every doctors needs team to work together in treating every single disease in the hospital, every engineers work together in one big firm to build up a very great building in the world and every man needs woman in their life in other to be called as a husband =) none of this people alone... although we always say that we can do everything by our self... trust me...u'r not doing all those things alone..there must be other people surrounding u that help u to accomplish any task that u'r doing...because its nature of life...people need others... only Allah...our greatest Creator can do everything by Himself ^_^

lots of loves,

zierahanie=)

  

♥ kenape ALLAH temukan kita dengan org y salah ♥

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...


Happy Tuesday! =)


want to share something...i get it from fb n i think its sweet ^_^

Memang sakit bila cinta yg kita dambakan selama ini tak dihargai oleh insan yg bernama kekasih,apatah lagi kita dibuang begitu saja... tapi,itulah juga petanda terbaik untuk diri dan kehidupan kita pada masa akan datang.


1. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya apabila kita bertemu jodoh yg sebenar,masih ada rasa syukur kita pada ketentuanNYA.

2. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat menjadi penilai yg baik.

3. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita sedar bahawa kita hanyalah makhluk yg sentiasa mengharapkan pertolongan ALLAH.

4. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat KASIH SAYANG YANG TERBAIK,KHAS UNTUK DIRI KITA.

5. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita sedar bahawa ALLAH MAHA PEMURAH & PENYAYANG kerana mengingatkan kita bahawa dia bukanlah pilihan yg hebat untuk kita dan kehidupan kita pada masa depan...

6. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat mengutip pengalaman yg tak semua orang berpeluang untuk mengalaminya.

7. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita jadi MANUSIA YG HEBAT JIWANYA.

8. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita lebih faham bahawa CINTA YG TERBAIK HANYA ADA BERSAMA ALLAH.

9. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita LEBIH MENGENALI KEHIDUPAN YG TAK SELAMANYA KEKAL.




p/s: hope he's the right one for me.. Ameen ^_^




lots of loves,
zierahanie =)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....=)

<3

lots of loves,

zierahanie=)

=')

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

I've tried to be the best 

for the people i love =') 

but sometimes

i maybe failed to do so

because im just a normal human being

forgive me for that

InsyaAllah i am learning something

but i may not be a fast learner like other people =')

and i realized 

that's my weakness

so whoever can bear with that

like my parents do throughout their 20 years of life with me

is the one will stay with me

throughout my whole life

God make me become the best

for the people i love

n hope i can fulfill all their wishes

O Allah bless all my loves with happiness 

Amin...

=')

lots of loves,

zierahanie =)

frustrated ='(

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...


Berhati-hatilah jika kamu membuatkan seorang wanita menangis, kerana Allah (SWT) mengira air matanya. Wanita datang dari tulang rusuk lelaki, tidak dari kakinya untuk berjalan di atasnya, bukan dari kepalanya untuk menjadi lebih degil, tetapi dari sisinya untuk menjadi sama, di bawah lengan untuk dilindungi dan di sebelah sisi hatinya untuk disayangi  =')


they never know what i've scarifies for 
im scarifies everything
 my feeling, my times 
to be with him 
to be with the one i love
just to ensure 
im not disturbing what they r doing
but when he asking me whether im okay or not
is a fault T_T
i dont know what to say
they never see what i've scarifies for their business
letting the one i love to concentrate more on
his business than me
but they never know
they just see that we just had fun together 
dear God make me strong ='(
but bless them with happiness
no heart feeling
just a bit frustrated... 








lots of loves,
zierahanie

wordless Wednesday =)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

=)

p/s: make me strong to live this beautiful life 

       with the people i love...

       Alhamdulillah im grateful for what i hv now ^_^

       

lots of loves,
zierahanie =)

heyy it October already!! time flies so fast ^_^

Bismillahirahmanirrahim..

Happy Monday!

It was a very busy weekend =) being a babysitter was not easy as we think...hehe..but i do love it...surrounded with kids made me forget about my problem for the meantime... And also watching the togetherness of pharmacy students doing their annual gathering made me missing so much with my orientation week..huhu...and not to forget learning to be gud wife also =pp haha...lol... those things completed my weekend! yeahh ^_*

inilah dy si kecik yg byk ckp =) hehe

muke puas baru lpas buli mamadik dy =p

yeahh with my BFF!! =))

lots of loves,

zierahanie=))

why women cry?

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Happy Saturday! =)

Some story to share...

 

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him. 

"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will." 

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?" 

"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say. 

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry. Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?" 

God said: "When I made the woman she had to be special. 

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. 

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children. 



I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining. 

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly. 

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. 

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly. 

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed." 

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. 

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

But sometimes aku x paham nape ade jugak perempuan yg akan sakitkan hati perempuan secara sengaja atau tidak. Padahal hati dua2 sama..saling memahami...Contoh yg paling terdekat aku amek ialah melayan pakwe, tunang atau suami org(kecuali kes best friend aku..ade complicated cket kat ctu) Bagi yg x tahu tu aku maafkan la tapi bg yg tahu tu emm x tahu nak ckp ape..paling senang tgk kat fb je la..terang2 kat situ kdg2 ade lelaki yg da letak status dy in relationship/engaged/married tapi still ade jugak sesetengah perempuan yg melayan...klu x gedik tu aku x kesah sgt..stakat kwn2..tapi bile dah masuk bab gedik2 tu yg temperature aku naik cket..

Alasan smuenye bile tanye.. ckp lelaki tu bg perhatian lebih kat diri...rase dihargai...ohhh please...=_='' x logik langsung ok...kite perempuan kene la control jugak...just nak tanye la... ape yg korang rase bile ade perempuan lain syok dok melayan ayah korang...mest la rase kecewa+sedih+sakit hati+kesian untuk mak kite kan...same goes to here..so harap dapat respect kat kaum sendiri..sedih klu kite sebagai seorang perempuan mengkhianati hak perempuan laen -_-''

lots of loves,

zierahanie=)

MEN vs WOMEN =)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

happy Tuesday! =)

=)

p/s: sometimes little scarifies make  

      the love even more stronger~

      InsyaAllah.. Ameen ^_^

lots of loves,

zierahanie =)

its Love.Wedding.Friends =)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Good morning handsome n beauty =)

              It's Sunday guys! means its weekend=) come2 let have some fun! but maybe mine was yesterday..so today lets do some work +_+ huhu..had to minimize it..lots of work to be finished..but before that let spreads some love n joy in this blog >_< pictures tell hundred stories...let them sing the love song =)

cik2 driver! hehe 

wedding at anim's house (mayb we can called it gathering =p)

happy 4 friends!

 brides to be >_< hehe (tumpang pelamin org je la dulu =p)

next, izzah's open house =)

me n nazleen ^^

ladies!

thx to mr camera man! =)

Once in awhile, 
Right in the middle of an ordinary life, 
Love gives us a fairy tale.

=)

lots of loves,

zierahanie=)

baru perasan telah di plagiarism..huhu

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

happy Monday! =)

Aishh dah lame rasenye x update blog..huhu..x berape nak ade mase...tgh cuba meng 'adapt' kan diri di tempat baru...biase la tu kan...mule2 dtg tmpat org...smue rase x selesa =) but no worry...InsyaAllah i will make it..hee

ohh yaa..sbenanye nak ckp pasal bende len...mukadimah je la tu..hehe..tibe2 hati terasa nak tgk...then tup2 skali nampak ayat sendiri kat page kawan...huhu...aiyoo glamour den...hehe...mcm kirenye ayat saye tu jadi quotes of the day la...hehe...nak kate aku copy paste dr mane2 xde la pulak..huhu...aku kompem tu ayat aku sendiri...=)

Tapi yg aku rase kan cam ade salah paham cket di situ...mungkin org yg bace tu tesalah tafsir...aku x maksud kan pasal past history kami msg2...tapi past history kami bersama..emm camno eh eden nak toghang...maksudnye cite kami mase form 2...haa...snang aku ckp kisah cinta x jadi kami mase form 2...hehe=p

So aku xde niat pn nak hina sape2...ayat tu aku reka utk kami sendiri...bukan pasal org len...huhu..aishh fb ni kadang2 leh buat hidup org kacau bilau je lahh..mase tu kitorang ade prob cket...emm tapi mmg xde kene mengena langsung dgn org len...aku harap clear smunye disini =) x pnah langsung ade niat nak dendam ngan sape2 so klu rase2 ade terbaca kat fb aku tu bende yg emo2 cket..biase la..prmpn...stiap bulan ade waktu2 nye kan...heee...so rasenye prmpn mesti lg memahami hati prmpn kan..=)biase la jealous smue tu..tapi last2 cool la blk=p

Aku tau smue org dah move on...aku pn InsyaAllah harapnye berkekalan dan inilah yg terakhir=) Alhamdulillah dgn mak aku dah kenalkan si dy...ayah je x sempat nak jumpe aritu..tapi bak kate abg aku..klu mak dah on..ayah on je..hee...so tinggal nak amek ati je la =) tapi dy ckp ngan aku nak fokus dulu kat study n keje dy..mule2 ngamok gak la aku sbab aku x masok dlm list fokus dy...hehe..tapi last2 aku pk..smue ni utk mase dpn kami gak kan..so x kesah la ape2 pn...asal dua2 memahami...haaa bg prmpn2 kat luar tu jgn lak amek kesempatan atas kelembutan aku( heheh lembut ke=p) MR HOZEFA ZAMIER da berpunya ye walaupn ade dy claim yg dy x berpunye lg...gtau aku cpat2..gatal noh syg...hehee...n aku pn harap2 xde la doktor2 houseman yg cute mute tibe2 muncul depan aku...amin..heheh..=p doakan la kami hingga ke syurga ye..InsyaAllah..Amin =) *mood tibe2 x saba nak abeskan 3 thn * heee gatal !

sdg menunggu si dy..heheh..=p *raye ke-3*

p/s: ape2 tanye dulu kat tuan punye bdn ok 

      so xde la confuse sendiri nant =)

lots of loves,
zierahanie =)

Happy Eid Mubarak =))

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

HAPPY EID MUBARAK GUYS

N 

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY! =)

2 in 1 

sounds great rite 

may Allah bless all 

^_^

lots of loves,

zierahanie=)

Doa buat kekasih =')

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Ya-Rabbul Ariffin
Tuhanku,Seandainya telah kau takdirkan dia milikku.. tercipta buatku
Dekatkan lah hatinya dengan hatiku
Tetapkan lah kemesraan antara kami
Agar kebahagiaan ini kekal abadi

Ya Muhaimin
Dan Tuhanku
Seiringkan lah kami mengharungi hidup luas ini
Ke tepian yang sejahtera

Ya Rabbul Fatihin
Tetapi Tuhanku yang Maha Pengasih
Seandainya telah kau takdirkan dia bukan milikku
Bawalah dia jauh dari pandangan ku
Luput dari ingatan ku
Dan peliharalah aku dari kecewa

Ya Rabbul Izzati
Serta Tuhanku yang Maha Mengerti
Berilah aku kekuatan melontar bayangannya ke dada langit
Hilang bersama senja nan merah
Dan gelap pekat awan
Agar aku bisa bahagia
Walaupun tanpa dirinya

Ya Rabbul Quddus
Dan Tuhanku
Biar sekuat mana aku menyintainya
Aku pohon agar Tuhanku
Melenyapkan perasaan ini
Sekiranya dia ditakdirkan bukan milikku

Ya Rahman Ya Rahim
Tapi sekiranya dia ditakdirkan untukku
Kupohan agar takdir memperkuatkan kasihku padanya
Selagi tidak melebihi kasihku padaMU

Amin.


zierahanie.

frustrated...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

This entry is just to explain about few things

First, every entry is like my own diary

im free to talk about anything

yaaa the reason was very obvious 

because its my own blog!

i can write anything i want

but still i care about any

CONFIDENTIALITY

that i have to take into consideration

i never let anything burst out all over.

Second, what im writing 3 or 5 months ago

never reflect what im thinking now

hello dear friends

remember im just human being

hv my own ups n downs

im not perfect at all

im not an angel.

And lastly, im sorry if my writing 

made u said

"daaa...apebende dy tulis ni???"

because again
im just 

a normal human being.

All this while, 

im trying hard to take care

of everyone feelings

im always ignoring mine

i care if i would hurt someone with my writing

but sometimes no one

did the same 

like what i did

they never think of me

maybe 

i should start

 thinking about 

myself.

p/s: sorry about this entry

      a bit emotional

      i hate when people accusing me

      the things that i didnt do.

zierahanie.

wordless Wednesday =)