Manhattan Fish... Medicine...Life goes on :)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Happy Thursday peeps! :)

i cant wait for the weekend to come! yeayyy..hopefully my advanced birthday present will be ready soon =p
Alright the sadness n everything has to be stop..i mean right now...n im finished with it! :) i hv my own life..family, frens n not to forget my dearest JiMiY..hehe..my very loyal companion..^^ thats why when people ask me why im still smiling even this thing happened to me... my answer is simple.. u'r not the person that was responsible to make me sad...u'r not the one to be blame for...so why im wasting my time to show my sadness in front of those people that always make me happy all the time :) n something that i know...Allah knows better..He was fair enough...i believes He will never let me to be in sad n bad period all the time..in the end He will set up a very beautiful rainbow after He gives the heavy rain :)

And this is what i do..enjoying my life =p having farewell party with my colleague :) n let the pictures tell the story ^^

haha..candid! ok obviously im not ready yet!!

they r those crazy frens! :)

ohh nooo..candid again! smiling with my eyes cant open =p

yeahhh lunch time! :0

they left me behind -_- im still on my way 

amaze!

the food! superb!!

there's dr wong..our beloved n super cool lecturer :)

colleagues

me! waiting for the food..ok im starving :0

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us! :)

yeahh rumieee! :)

lots of loves,

zierahanie :)

searching for my own happiness :)

My family

yes there r those special people

that pull me up

especially now

during my rough time 

tq for supporting me ^^

My silence...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...


...was what I needed and now the awkward start begins. 

I'm different now. Not so perhaps to those who know me. Much so to those who think they know me. I meant no harm. Honest...I just did what I had to do. No more pretending. No more resenting. 

It wasn't all a lie. No...I genuinely had moments where my heart felt so at peace. Moments I reached out...bursting with honesty & truth trying to make sense of it all. Trying to connect. But I feel there is something missing, something I still don't understand causing me to be this way. There was something wrong with me and to ignore it any longer would only do more harm than good. 

Words don't suffice to explain what's going on with me, forgive me for that. I want to start over...this time insyaAllah with the right foot forward, with my heart in place. I took a risk and it wasn't easy.
Ya Allah make me strong to face this... 

So please...let me~

im tired...give me some rest

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Im tired of keeping it all alone,

im tired of thinking that its all gonna be fine

when nothing change,

when im all alone along the road trying hard

to make it happened

but you seems not doing anything...

im trying hard to be ur friend

like what u want one

but still u treat me differently

compared when u with ur friends

obviously i can see that

n maybe u never realized that

for a few days im trying 

not to be like i always be when im with u
i want to be ur friend
instead of 'friend'

but still nothing changed

am i not one of ur friend??

im tired...

Sometimes i agree

im bursting out

i got no control of myself...

Honestly in the 1st place

why u still choosing me

to be ur 'friend'

when the passion in u

towards me has lost

im tired

when nothing i do

would impress u

my dear friend 

im tired of all this

give me some rest...

(#Unknown)